Wanted to see what all the fuss was about with these witch goddess powers, you know? Heard stories, read stuff online, figured hey, why not try some things myself? Don't laugh, but it started kinda simple.
Getting Started Was... Messy
First off, I tried the whole meditation thing everyone talks about for getting mystical energy. Seriously. Sat cross-legged on my cheap yoga mat, lit some incense I found at the dollar store – figured it couldn't hurt. Tried focusing real hard, emptying my mind or whatever. Honestly? Mostly felt my foot falling asleep. Got kinda frustrated after 20 minutes of mostly thinking about what to have for dinner. Big realization: This "centering your energy" stuff ain't instant. Probably needs more than one awkward sit-down.
So I pivoted. Found this super basic spellbook at the thrift store – looked ancient, probably was just dusty. It talked about "simple manifestation" first. Sounded easy enough. Basically, just focusing intensely on something you want while holding a candle. Decided my goal was finding my lost car keys. Sounded practical, right?
- Step Uno: Got a plain white candle (kitchen drawer emergency stash).
- Step Dos: Held it tight while staring like I was trying to melt it with my eyes, chanting "keys, keys, show me my keys" under my breath. Felt super dumb.
- Step Tres: Finished the chant, blew out the candle, walked straight to the sofa... and found the keys wedged in the cushion. Coincidence? Probably. But hey, it kinda spooked me. Did the focusing really make me look harder?
Moving Up To Weird Stuff
Emboldened by my key victory (even if it was likely luck), I decided to aim higher. The book mentioned "subtle influence over nature." Okay, maybe I could try affecting a plant? Had this sad little basil plant looking droopy near the window.
Followed another guide I found online: plant whispering. Basically sitting near it daily, talking nice, imagining bright green health and growth vibes going into it. Talked about basil recipes mostly – what it wanted to hear, right? Watered it normally, nothing special. Did this for like ten minutes, felt absolutely ridiculous every time. A week later... that plant perked up! New leaves! Maybe it was just happy I wasn't forgetting to water it? Or maybe the talking helped? Who knows.
The Realization (And The Kinda Dark Part)
Okay, so I didn't exactly make it rain indoors or turn my cat into a familiar. But what this little experiment showed me – step by awkward step – is maybe it's less about big flashy movie powers, and more about like... a weird kind of intense focus channeled over time?
- That manifestation thing? Maybe just training myself to be hyper-aware.
- Plant whispering? Maybe consistent positive attention actually did something, or maybe just believing it would work made me care more.
Then it got kinda weird. Last week, my old college buddy called out of the blue. Haven't spoken in years. We chat, turns out he got laid off. Exactly like what happened to me a couple years back when I worked for that startup. Remember that place? Promised the world, then one Friday the boss calls everyone: funding gone, whole team gone. Poof. Just like that. Pack your stuff, security watches you leave. Felt like garbage for months. Been doing this blogging thing since.
So me and my buddy talk for hours about how much it sucks, how companies just toss people aside. Felt that cold pit in my stomach again. Why does this connect? Honestly? After my own firing, I felt powerless. Maybe that's why I started messing around with trying to find any kind of control, any kind of hidden "power," even something silly like finding keys or talking to plants. Makes you feel less like the universe just kicks you around for no reason. Building your own little bit of magic, I guess? Even if it's probably just luck and self-delusion.
