Alright, so you want to know about this whole business of figuring out what "spirits" or whatever you want to call them, need to be dealt with. It's not like I woke up one day and decided, "Hey, let's make a list of bad vibes!" Life kinda pushed me into it, you know? Things were messy, real messy. I was hitting walls, feeling stuck in patterns that made no sense, and honestly, just tired of my own junk.
How It Started For Me
I didn't go looking for some spooky list. For a long time, I just thought, "This is just me, this is my personality, these are my issues." You hear people talk about being "delivered" from stuff, and frankly, some of it sounded a bit out there. Like, way out there. I’m a pretty down-to-earth person, so I was skeptical. But when you're backed into a corner, you start looking at options you'd normally ignore.
Someone mentioned, "Maybe there are spiritual roots to some of this." And my first thought was, "Oh, here we go." But they weren't pushy, just shared their own experience. So, I started paying more attention, not to what others said I should have, but to what was actually going on inside me.
Figuring Out My Own "List"
This wasn't about finding some ancient scroll with names on it. For me, the "list" became the stuff I could identify in my own life, the recurring things that were tripping me up. It was more like a personal inventory, but on a deeper level. Think about it:
- That constant, nagging fear. Not just normal worry, but that deep-seated anxiety that would just paralyze me over small things, or big things, or things that hadn't even happened. That went on my "to deal with" list.
- Anger that came out of nowhere. Or bitterness that stuck around way too long over old hurts. You know, the kind that eats you up inside. Yep, put that on the list too.
- Those weird compulsions or habits that I couldn't shake, even though I knew they weren't good for me. Felt like I wasn't fully in control sometimes. That was a big one.
- Negative thought patterns. The "I'm not good enough," "this will never work," "what's the point?" kind of stuff that just played on a loop. It was like having a really critical, nasty roommate living in my head.
- Generational stuff. Started noticing patterns that were in my family. Things my parents struggled with, or even grandparents. Made me wonder how much of that I was carrying without even realizing it. That was a tricky one to unpack.
So, my "list" wasn't handed to me. It was dug out, piece by piece, from the mess of my own experiences. It was less about "demons" with pitchforks and more about identifying these destructive influences and strongholds that had taken root.
The Actual "Deliverance" Part – Not a Quick Fix
Now, "getting delivered" from this stuff? Man, that was a journey, and it still is. It wasn't a one-time prayer and boom, everything's perfect. Some things lifted quickly, almost surprisingly so. I'd just feel… lighter, like a weight was gone. And I'd be like, "Huh, was that it?"
But other stuff? That was a fight. It meant facing ugly truths about myself, about things that had happened. It meant choosing, over and over, not to go back to old ways of thinking or reacting. It meant learning to stand my ground, spiritually speaking. Sometimes I'd feel like I made progress, then I'd slip back. It was frustrating. There were days I thought, "This isn't working."
It involved a lot of prayer, yeah, but also a lot of intentional work on my part. Changing my thinking, changing my habits, sometimes removing myself from situations or relationships that were just dragging me back into the muck. It's like cleaning out a really cluttered house. You don't just wave a magic wand. You gotta roll up your sleeves, sort through the junk, decide what to keep, what to throw out. And sometimes you find stuff you forgot was even there, covered in dust.
Why I'm Sharing This Way
I guess I’m telling you all this because it's not always this neat, tidy process that some people make it out to be. It can be raw, and it's very personal. You can read all the books, listen to all the teachings, but until you get real with yourself and what's actually going on inside you, those lists from other people might not mean much.
My "list" became clear through struggle, through paying attention to my own life, my own pain, my own repeated failures. And the "deliverance" part is an ongoing walk, not a one-stop shop. It’s about freedom, yeah, but freedom you have to choose and fight for, day in and day out. It’s less about a list of names and more about a life lived differently. That’s been my experience, anyway. Rough around the edges, but real.
